We spend so much time focused on our appearance.
We're built that way. Can't help it.
I come from a family that's never had (that I'm old enough to remember) any real problems with money. I've always tried to look poorer than I actually was though. I think it comes from the fact that when I was younger some kids in my group of friends lived in a trailer park and I was maybe ashamed of the abundance of foodstuff at our house, at all my shoes and pants and shirts and gaming systems so I started changing what I presented to people.
They were the tough kids too. Survival instinct? If I don't look too much like a nerd they won't beat me up?
After that, throughout high school I'd wear army pants, loose t-shirt, black hoodie.
Pretty sure Kurt Cobain had something to do with it too...
We spend so much time searching for just the right article of clothing. We do it so much in fact that we congratulate each other on a fucking t-shirt we bought.
We didn't design it. We didn't sow it. We didn't have anything to do with the creation, production, shipping of that particular product. All we did was walk around on our free time in a giant area dedicated to stuff for our appearance and spend our money on it.
"Fucking sweet shirt bro"
I've said it, I've heard it. It gives me a honest feeling of pride and happiness. Yesssss, the dude at Soundcentral likes my new Stormtrooper t-shirt! I remember that day, I was looking for leftover weekend passes to the first Pouzzafest. It was sunny and I was full of pep.
I have tons of t-shirts. I gave a lot away to charity before leaving on my trip, about 3 garbage bags worth. The ones left are - for the most part - band shirts bought in live shows. I'd like to think I bought them mostly to support the groups but in reality it's because of what it makes me look like when I wear it - that's why I kept them too, it's my favourite image of myself. Not the comic book geek nor the slightly-outdoorsy guy but the show-goer.
We spend so much time fine-tuning what our outside looks like.
Is it to hide what's inside?
Is it rather to showcase what makes us, us, without having to talk to each other?
What if we started to focus all that time and energy on something else?
What if we started to make our core beautiful?
They say the eyes are the window to the soul.
I don't believe in the concept of a soul.
I do believe in smiles though. It's one of my favourite things. I like to smile, I like to make people smile.